“I don’t know about you, but it’s the idea that I’m not measuring up that gets me. I’m constantly worrying and wondering and feeling like I am failing because everywhere I look , everyone else seems to be thriving.” Shonda Rhimes
I have been giving “worthiness” a lot of thought lately, and I’ve come to realize that I feel fundamentally unworthy. I am a dentist, a professional accountant, a business owner, the mom of 2, married for almost 18 years, and it’s still feels like it’s not enough.
I realize that this stems from my childhood, and I am no longer a child, but here I am, still struggling with feeling worthy. I know it must come from inside me, but I struggle with knowing how to get all the way there so that I can feel it with certainty, in my bones.
I suspect, like so many other things, it is a practice, involving telling my inner critic to back off and hush up and feeling grateful for all that I am and all that I’ve done so far. Not easy, not overnight, but so worth it.
Meditation: A Water Meditation to Connect With Your True Self from Anne Koller and Sonima. This meditation is different from what I usually do. It’s what I would consider a bit more “woo-woo.”
Learning: Success & Worthiness. What do they have in common? from Mom is in Control (Heads up: there are swear words in this podcast.)
Journaling prompt: Make a list of things you’ve been avoiding doing because you feel unworthy. Bonus: Strike off each item and write, “I AM WORTHY RIGHT NOW.”
Gratitude: What one thing are you currently taking for granted that you’re grateful for?
Yoga: Yoga to Get the Juices Going! from Yoga with Adriene
What have you been taking for granted? I often take for granted the fact that I am able to work, as a woman. Not that long ago, women didn’t have many options.