It’s been quite the day. I won’t get into the details of the school stuff that’s been causing me major stress, but it has been causing sleep problems off and on for several weeks now. I woke up at 4:30am this morning and couldn’t get back to sleep. I had a major meltdown this morning about a problem I’m dealing with at school, and then I had a bad-mommy moment with my daughter on the way to dropping my kids off at school. It was the low point of my day and that’s saying quite a bit.
I wish I could just shake off this school stress, but I can’t. Even my relaxation and deep sleep iTunes tracks aren’t doing the trick. I can’t stop thinking about the problem, even though there’s not much more I can do about it, unfortunately.
I know that I should be taking better care of myself right now in terms of eating, water, and working out, and I’ve been making an effort to do just that, but I didn’t have a stellar day today. I was short on veggies, didn’t drink enough water, missed my bootcamp workout because I had an appointment I couldn’t schedule any other time, and had a couple of treats more than I should have.
Eh, I know that this isn’t a lifelong situation and my problems really pale in comparison to those faced by the people of Japan, soldiers overseas, and those in Libya, etc., etc., but I am struggling with school right now. I just hate it, and it’s spilling over into every aspect of my life so that it’s all-consuming. I wish I could tell you more about what’s going on, but suffice to say it’s more of a personal matter than a schoolwork matter – although it has also turned into a schoolwork matter, now. Wow, was that completely unclear or what?
I’m off to cram for a quiz some more. I am super tired, but the one benefit of stress is that I feel too wound up to sleep right now. And since the stress will probably wake me up early, I should be able to get in one last review tomorrow. Now that’s finding the the silver lining, isn’t it? Ha.
Did I mention I hate school? And that I’m paying tuition to get mentally effed over?
Trying to keep my chin up and all that other stuff,
Mostly Fit Mom